WHENEVER I FEEL LIKE SHIT I JUST THINK OF YOU,
THE SHIT THAT YOU PUT ME THROUGH, THE SHIT I PUT MYSELF THROUGH JUST BEING AROUND YOU AND WHATEVER I AM GOING THROUGH FEELS LIKE IT’S JUST ANOTHER MONDAY.
IT’S SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT WHEN WHAT I REMEMBER AS THE WORST TIMES OF MY LIFE, WERE ALSO THE BEST.
I’m upset and miserable because I know what I am capable of achieving but I’m not. I’m angry at myself for not chasing my dreams + goals when I know I can accomplish them. I know I can have everything I’ve ever dreamed of, the only person standing in my way is me .It’s an intense moment when you truly realize your potential and how you are wasting it. Infinite opportunities pass me by while I do nothing to get me any closer to my dreams. It’s an empty feeling.
Last night I had a dream about you.
We were witting in my car in the pouring rain,
I was crying because you were dying.
I kept asking then begging you to just stop
I desperately needed you to stop,
as if you were also killing me
I need to stop talking about my problems with people because then they feel the need to give me their advice.
We all know how much i fucking hate advice.
is the stupidest fucking thing ever, no one ever takes it, especially not me.
Talking about your problems is pointless, so just don’t do it.
i feel like a ghost just
going through the motions
of this life i’m in.
meanwhile the life
i’m supposed to be living
just not with
me in it.